i did a decision jus now..
and is be guai kia and dun care bout all the bad stuff..
did i did the correct decision..
seriously i dunno..
u all jus wan me watang and so on..
bt did u think how i feel..
i also wan.
bt i jus couldnt stand my hse alway fill with scoldin and shoutin..
and seein my brother and my father shag like siao..
seein me shoutin with my mother..
did i nvr try..
did i really didnt try to make u proud..
i tried..
and if it within my mean i wil help..
bt sometime nt i dun wan to rebel against my mother..
bt is my brother..
if u ever see his face u wil farkin know it..
i k ow i may be a mama boy lahz..
bt aloh when did i nvr go down to help u all..
if i can go down..
if that wad u all think then ok lahz..
all of ur mother didnt come home and jus shout at ur bloody face..
and make the whole family wake up..
jus because u did something wrong..
even my brother hu doesnt cry did cry for me..
and tel me nt to disappoint my mother..
did anyone know..
did anyone ever bother..
u all wil only know that i alway listen to my mother and do wad he sae..
bt aloh u think lahz..
wad for at a home where u know u wil quarrel everytime u see her face..
and everytime it start..
ur father would show the helpless face..
wun u feel guilty..
i know u all whack ur mother and wad..
bt did u think how hurt they will..
i may be rebel against them..
bt i would nt wan to see their sad face again..
i dunno whether wad i did is correct??

to my wdl brother..
if wad i did disappoint u..
then so be it..
coz i really cant stand my family stress over my matter..
i love my family..
and i know only be loyal to ur family wil u succeed at society..
wad i wanna sae is a sry to those i disappointed..
and if can we can stil be frenz and brother...